je ne suis pas heureux.

ever felt like u've been spread thinly, like butter over a piece of bread? (oh that depends if you like a lot of butter or a little)

like... 24 hours in a day is never enough. yeah, i do, at times (or many times), change away my off days for flights. but i only do that when i know i've nothing on that day, and if it's a short rest day in between flights i might as well change it away for more flights. that'd bring in more money and less expenditure.

i've friends i haven't been able to meet up in a while because time doesn't really permit.

i've things i've always wanted to do but then the financial constraints.

i feel i've been stretched.

sometimes i get angry with charcoal for waking me up in the middle of the night because he wants to eat snacks. but then he's just a dog, and still a baby, and probably doesn't know. and i guess he wants to spend more time with me too. and i feel guilty, cos i haven't been spending much time at home with charcoal, with mum.

so.

yep.
i'm worn out.