new york new york

i thought i'd get over it, but every trip to new york is just a harsh reminder of what happened last year. i can't ever imagine how time flew by so fast. it always feels like yesterday when i had to live with the fact that we are minus one in the family.

the only thing that made me upset is the fact that i had to grow up overnight and deal with all money matters in the family. financial contributions and handling family finances are just two different things. so many days i have to live with nothing in my bank account, changing all other foreign currencies to home cos i just have nothing to live on. only consolation i have is that my current job pays good enough to keep the family alive. i just need to save on certain things.

that aside, i live on fairly decently.

i went to donate blood the day before i left for this trip and though it wasn't anything scary anymore, i was pretty surprised when i felt alright after the donation. Until about 4 hours later, i removed the arm band and... i fainted briefly at the airport carpark when mr kwok was loading his bags into the car. his enactment: "i was talking and talking and then when i closed the boot you were nowhere to be seen."

ya laugh all you want.

anyway i am severely lacking good proper rest. after 2 over years in flight i've decided to heck following the local time when i'm overseas and sleep all i want.

so now at 11.30am in NEW YORK NEW YORK, I AM GOING TO SLEEP. and no one is going to stop me or say WHY ARENT U GOING SHOPPING! cos i just ain't. i want to save money.

so there.

bye bye and good night.