Will you remember me?

Today as I was walking along the places he and I used to frequent, I couldn't control the memories which flooded my mind, memories which I haven't visited in a long while; memories which I struggled to keep within the depths of my soul, my mind.

I felt horrible. I felt alone in the crowd. And I wondered, briefly, if he would ever think of me.

Yet, I know the answer.

I wondered if he ever remembered me, given his bad memory.

And I guess, not.

I once said this to him, when we were still friends, how it is weird that a person who used to be so so close to you can suddenly be out of your life, from a confidante to a stranger on the streets, from a lover to just an acquaintance. How a couple can end up being familiar strangers... how two people feel distanced even when they are next to each other. Familiar strangers, that's what we are.

Sometimes I wish I could cry, but crying is such a hard thing to do. Yes, at times I do feel very tired of staying happy even when I'm not, but how long can I stay upset? Without me, his world will go on turning...

This song from LeAnn Rimes pretty much says what I am feeling now.

Please Remember

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And you're left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I wont forget so don't forget
The memories we made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you and you were there for me
Please remember our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
I'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you and you were there for me
And remember, please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you and you were there for me
Please remember our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Then remember, please remember me

And how we laughed and how we smiled
And how this heart was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast we ride so free
I had you and you had me
Please remember, please remember

Will you?